July 2019 – Hieroes Organization

Relationship Status: Single, Unmarried, No Children

Posted on July 31, 2019 by Ana Barajas

This week a beloved friend of mine came into my office seeking comfort about her life status. She began to say, “I’m not married and I want to have a baby. I have baby fever. I see babies everywhere. My Facebook news feed is full of baby posts. I don’t like my body all the way, and I don’t have the things I want to have.” I listened carefully as I sat behind my desk watching her down caste appearance, thinking to myself, “What? You have it all together. You only need one thing. Ok two. Your licence to practice and Jesus.” She continue to speak, but I interrupted her […]

Community, Men and Women, Our Humanness

Deconstructing a Child’s Identity

Posted on July 30, 2019 by Ana Barajas

Her little eyes were fixed on the perfected marching ants. She followed them until she lost sight of them. She giggled to herself as she thought out a mischief. The little girl skipped all the way home singing songs out loud. She’d say things like, “Mommy look, the moon is following me,” or asked questions such as, “Is the sun a ball of fire or is it long spaghetti strings of light going in different directions?” She though herself a princess, literally. She wore her mothers heels and ruled her world. In her mind. She intrinsically knew God loved her and she felt powerful. This five year old was fierce […]

Children of Christ, When Darkness Falls

I Know You Immensely

Posted on July 28, 2019 by Ana Barajas

My son I know that you are about to become a full man and you have never known the love of a father. You have never known true and unconditional affection from a godly man. I know that this has affected your identity and your view of God in ways you cannot yet articulate. This is what stings me. This is the one thing that I cannot fix for you. I need you to understand how immensely I know you and how profoundly I see your heart. Allow me to tell you what I see in your heart: I don’t know if my mother loves me enough. Why did she have […]

Children of Christ, Hope

Absolution of My Heart

Posted on July 20, 2019 by Ana Barajas

I stare at the pond outside of my window. The water moves with ease, it seems to be enchanted by mellow winds. My eyes capture the dancing movements of the tall pines surrounding the pond. I think to myself, “I wish I was the movement the wind produces in nature.” I sit on the comfort of my white cotton bed sheets as I ponder, “Where is this coming from? What is the need of my heart?” And then this thought comes in, “I want to have a light heart.” I smile because this thought gives me so much pleasure. I enter in dialog with God. He whispers, “The old is […]

Children of Christ, Hope