If I Were Him

If I were him I would acknowledge God as my Lord and then I would become a man of honor. If I were him I would become brave by allowing myself to fall in love. If I were him I would strengthen my heart in God in order to fight for her. I would climb high mountains just to touch her essence. If I were him I would swim across wide oceans to show her that I am worthy of her. If I were him I would conquer her heart by giving her my undivided attention. I’d look into her soul. I’d know her deepest thoughts. If I were him […]

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I Have a Void

I have a void. I have a hole in the middle of my chest that slowly creeps across my body consuming it with utter darkness. I have a void. Although, I’ve filled myself with temporary pleasures, I’ve found nothing to be satisfying. I have a void. I have dwelled among the spiritually crippled and among the spiritually rich; yet, I still have this consuming void. I remember the little girl cocooned in fear and rejection. Today, I feel loved and completely, completely accepted by the body of Christ. But, I still have this consuming void. I have been loved by the man of my desires and I have loved too. […]

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Fill Me

You wanted my heart. You wanted the throne of my heart. You wanted to be the only one that moved my desires and my dreams. So, I got rid of my idols. Even though I wanted to run into their arms, I did not! I tore down the altars. I shattered them against the walls. There aren’t any remains. But, I still feel empty. Can you please fill me with your love? Write your name……..seal me with your abundant love, that I may dwell in your abundant love. There is nothing else. There is no one else. You are My God forever. I need to be filled with Your love. […]

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I am Still Here

I want to be a righteous woman. I want to be called Your daughter. I want to please You, and cause You to be proud of calling me, “My child.” I desire Your ways. I truly delight in Your Law. I worship You. You have written Your Word on the tablet of my heart. It is written, rooted deep within. But, The light has deemed. I am gasping for air. I am trying to breath. The pain came and I became discouraged. I’m not saying I am Doubting, I could never, You are True and Faithful. I just need to see Your hand, Your light once again. I need to […]

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