Spiritual Exercises

Mind your own business is something that ought to cross my mind more. How often do we get caught up in gossip and compare ourselves to others? More than we would probably like. This thinking is non-conducive to becoming the beset version of ourselves. Everyday God invites us to improve our former self. It is a constant call for transformation. A good way to help see if we are making the right strides is to follow the Examen. This is a form of prayerful reflection on the events of the day, thus it is usually prayed at night. In this spiritual exercise we thank God for all the many ways […]

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You Arrived

I stood in the fire, but I didn’t get burned. This angered me because I wanted my body to become ashes. Why not? My soul was already burning in hell, And my spirit was scattered by the hurried winds.   I stood in the middle of the grave wearing my bloody stained white robe. I was crying but I didn’t take notice because of the depths of the pain. A demon stripped away my innocence. He should have buried me.   I was drowning in agonizing thoughts. I ran barefoot through the night of the forest. My feet were bruised and cut opened by the glass on the ground. I […]

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That they May Know the Lord

After the church service my son and I stopped to eat to a nearby restaurant in Rogers Park. Outside of the restaurant on the sidewalk sat a homeless man. I observed him through the large, clear widow as I chatted with my boy; his blue sweeter was torn and his shoes had holes. I told Nico to look over at the man. He asked, “Are we going to help him?” Sure enough, we bought some food for him. We left the restaurant and approached the man. We asked him if we could sit next to him. Without a care in the world He said yes. The man was shaking and he spoke with a […]

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Hosanna

First of all, happy Easter season! Truly we should be overjoyed. My priest exclaimed we are the only religion that has the leader(founder) alive still. I can testify to this. Not only because Jesus is alive in the Eucharist but also in spirit of people. His spirit is with us and will continue to be. In addition, I have travel to the Holy Land. At the Church of the Holy Sepulchre there are the religious guarding this holy site. I got to visit Jesus’ tomb and it certainly was empty. Many people kissed it. It was a moment I will never forget. Jesus has been very personal to me. Not […]

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One Woman to Another

When I was done sharing my story an elegant woman approached me. She stated, “You remind me of me. Do you have time for me to share a little about my latest experiences?” I held her hands as a sat near her getting ready to give her my undivided attention. And so she began: I dreamt a sweet-bitter dream last night in which the love of my life and I chatted in the Spirit about God and life. We were filled by each other’s presence. He treated me with such reverence, like a true daughter of the King. He held me in his arms and prayed for me endlessly. Endlessly. […]

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You Alone

And with everything You have given me, I have nothing. To all of the places You have taken me, I’ve been nowhere. And with everything You have shown me, I know nothing. All of the beauty in the mirror is nothing. And all of my innerself is non-existing. I am nothing, but a soul seeking a place to rest. I am nothing without You guiding me. I cannot see. My vision is not clear if I do not see You. I am lost without You; in an everlasting forest without veggitation. And all of Your words mean nothing, if You yourself have not entered in me. Any wisdom is nothing. Any […]

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A Moment with The Girls of the Spa

Sometimes things aren’t what they seem. We often think that a woman who is being trafficked for sex constantly experiences physical abuse. And although I am positive an element of violence is present in all forms of sexual abuse, when I am in the presence of the women working to serve the Johns in their spa, I witness affection that confuses me. It seems to me that these particular Johns—their sex clients of today—are VIP clients because of the way the ladies treat them, in a very familiar manner. I can observe them hug these men as they welcome them into the spa. They spend about five minutes making them […]

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I Have a Void

I have a void. I have a hole in the middle of my chest that slowly creeps across my body consuming it with utter darkness. I have a void. Although, I’ve filled myself with temporary pleasures, I’ve found nothing to be satisfying. I have a void. I have dwelled among the spiritually crippled and among the spiritually rich; yet, I still have this consuming void. I remember the little girl cocooned in fear and rejection. Today, I feel loved and completely, completely accepted by the body of Christ. But, I still have this consuming void. I have been loved by the man of my desires and I have loved too. […]

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Fill Me

You wanted my heart. You wanted the throne of my heart. You wanted to be the only one that moved my desires and my dreams. So, I got rid of my idols. Even though I wanted to run into their arms, I did not! I tore down the altars. I shattered them against the walls. There aren’t any remains. But, I still feel empty. Can you please fill me with your love? Write your name……..seal me with your abundant love, that I may dwell in your abundant love. There is nothing else. There is no one else. You are My God forever. I need to be filled with Your love. […]

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I am Still Here

I want to be a righteous woman. I want to be called Your daughter. I want to please You, and cause You to be proud of calling me, “My child.” I desire Your ways. I truly delight in Your Law. I worship You. You have written Your Word on the tablet of my heart. It is written, rooted deep within. But, The light has deemed. I am gasping for air. I am trying to breath. The pain came and I became discouraged. I’m not saying I am Doubting, I could never, You are True and Faithful. I just need to see Your hand, Your light once again. I need to […]

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