Thank You! To All of My Father Figures, Brother Figures, Professors, and Mentors

Thank you! To all of my father figures, brother figures, professors, and mentors; those of you who over the years created space for me to grown in many different capacities. This lock down has given me the time and space to reflect on the gift you have been. God placed you in my life to heal pieces of my distorted belief system concerning masculinity and I just want to thank you. I did not spend much time with some of you, but the brief interactions we had were more than enough, God used your character to mend my heart, so thank you. THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! Thank you for noticing […]

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My 2019 Analysis: I’m Grateful

I made a story of my 2019 memories to share on my social media platforms, through that I realized that I have grown so much this year and that there is so much growth I still want to do. Even though my social media story does not show the sad moments, the moments when I made mistakes, nor the moments of fear; the moments when I cried to God for help or forgiveness and restoration, those are the moments that propelled the good ones. I had a serious health scare this year, I was rushed to the ER because I could not breath and my chest was in extreme pain. […]

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The Lord Speaks to Him

When my son was done readying scripture we discussed his study on Proverbs 1-10, it went something like this: Me: What resonated with you from your study? Nico: Ummm, I don’t know, but it’s all good stuff. Me: Ok, but what jumped out? Something grabbed your heart. Nico: That, pretty much, to value the instruction of your father and mother. So, in my case, YOU. That, it’s good to stay away from the seductive woman. And…..hold on, let me read it: ‘For wisdom is more profitable than silver, and her wages are better than gold. Wisdom is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her.’ Pro. 3:14-15 […]

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Motherhood Dilemmas

Lately, I have been freaking out about my parenting skills and how my short comings could potentially affect the future of my son. I have also been fearing the culture and how it influences my six-teen year old son. I’ve deeply been pondering about the should’s: I should have loved him more. I should have spend more time teaching my son about Scripture. I should have invested more time with my son doing things he loves to do. I should have never talked to my son in a diminishing nature along the way. I should have encouraged him more. I should have given him more materialistic things. I should have […]

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Faith Over Fear in a World of Sexual Sin

One of my favorite mentors Spencer Robbins said to me, “I’ve found that 98% of men I’ve met, deal or have dealt with sexual struggles- specifically porn and masturbating. The rare breeds are the ones that run after breaking free from shame and are willing to do whatever it takes to get free from those behaviors and connect with love.” Haven been sexually abused as a child I always run away from potential relationships when I notice or when the guy tells me of his sexual struggles. This is the biggest trigger for me. I am not willing to stay and even discuss their sexual issues because I feel that’s […]

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Relationship Status: Single, Unmarried, No Children

This week a beloved friend of mine came into my office seeking comfort about her life status. She began to say, “I’m not married and I want to have a baby. I have baby fever. I see babies everywhere. My Facebook news feed is full of baby posts. I don’t like my body all the way, and I don’t have the things I want to have.” I listened carefully as I sat behind my desk watching her down caste appearance, thinking to myself, “What? You have it all together. You only need one thing. Ok two. Your licence to practice and Jesus.” She continue to speak, but I interrupted her […]

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My Note to a Brother in Christ

God has been teaching this to me the last few months: to feel the pain and not dismiss it. I tried so hard to run away from pain that I drugged myself with everything I could before I knew Christ. When I met Christ I drugged myself with Him. I was using God instead of allowing Him to heal me. In class we are reading a book and it talks about feeling pain. Now, I see the beauty in pain and suffering. It’s how we grow into being more like Christ. It’s how we learn to love others. Do you remember when we went to eat at Three Arts Club […]

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You are Perfect in Every Way

“Worthless. Worthless! Worthless!! Worthless!!! Worthless!!!! Worthless!!!!!” A tempest of tears stream from my eyes down to my hoodie. I can’t make since of the perfection he listed with such detail: “You are perfect in every way. I love everything about you; the way you think, the way you carry yourself. You are confident and beautiful inside and out. I love your heart, the way you love God, you are obedient to Him and you have compassion for people. I love your smile and your dimples. I love the powerful woman you have become and you’re only going to get better. Damn. You are perfect in every way. You live a […]

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The C.P.D. are More than Police Officers they are System Revolutionists

There’s a system that desecrates. There’s a system to which the childish are slaves. These tumult customs are killing freedom; it’s a philosophy for the dead. We are not blaming anyone; we are all trying to break free. We are not each other’s enemies, although the system works hard to make it so. But, there is a way out. Yes, there is a choice to be made. Choose life to break free from the broken system. Many turn the blind eye and they see them less than worthy, but some have taken notice: On May 10th 2018, the Health and Safety Committee from the Cicero Community made up of heart […]

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The Irving Effect (T.I.E) Movement Inauguration Night: A Night of Healing

I approached the Cicero Stadium with expectancy, as I walked up the stairs to the event I was impacted by the type of music they were playing. They played Christ filled music and I found myself engorged with the Spirit of God; perhaps because I and my prayer team from church had been praying about the event the entire week and the presence of God heavily lingered within me. I stepped into the gymnasium where many young people finished decorating the altar running down the bleachers in which two huge drawings stood. The drawing on the left depicted Christ Jesus, whereas the drawing on the right depicted Mary. A Cross formed […]

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